Finally opened my Eyes.....

Have you ever tried to protect yourself so much that you hurt yourself more??? I finally realized that is what I am doing. I was trying to protect myself from being hurt even though there was nothing that was hurting me, I just didn't want it to happen. I don't know if that makes any sense but I think I actually figured it out. I woke up this morning without that empty feeling inside that I have had for so long and have been trying so hard to fill. I think I needed to just figure it out and I did. Sorry I am just going on and on.........